cats pajamas. bees knees.

here it tis...
maybe not my favorite songs of all time
but at least for the time being.
and i tried to narrow it down to 10 this time.
couldnt happen.
so heres the top 25. oh well.

make your own kind of music = cass elliot (my personal theme song)
hello, goodbye = the beatles
these days = nico
passenger seat = death cab for cutie
i remember = damien rice
hide and seek = imogen heap
warning sign = coldplay
star mile = joshua radin
i was meant for the stage = the decemberists
todays the day = aimee mann
starman = mates of state
brand new colony = the postal service
australia = the shins
she = green day
with arms outstretched = rilo kiley
the boy who blocked his own shot = brand new
a quite reflective thought = missing you dearly
rain = patty griffin
arizona = pedro the lion
tangerine = led zeppelin
harder now that its over = ryan adams
jefferson airplane = relient k
i'm a cuckoo = belle and sebastian
hold still = sleeping at last
popular mechanics for lovers = beulah

where i'm headed, you just dont know the way.

a sad realization struck me tonight.
that the very person that i
in an almost literal sense
have come home to for approximately three years now
will
in less than three short months
no longer be there
when i return.
even when i attempt to sit down
and contemplate what exactly is going to happen next...
i'm pretty sure i have no idea.
i havent even got my feet wet yet
when it comes to understanding
how much everything will change.
there is a quick sadness that fills my heart.

i also find it surprisingly amusing that as soon as a sickness of any kind (now being a cold) sets into my body, a mild depression/anger also attacks me. i may eat strawberry cupcakes or watch school of rock to alleviate the pain, but the truth is my sadness is high. my energy/motivation lacking. my temper is short. my attitude thick. and my tolerance low. as a result i have upset my mom. there is no other disappointment like that.

in other vaguely uninteresting and uplifting news...
it occurred to me tonite that
the list of top ten songs i conjured up eons ago
(cited here: http://serenacorine.blogspot.com/2005/05/sunshinebeen-keeping-me-up-for-days.html)
is severely outdated
and in need of revamping.
a post containing the revised list will follow shortly.
be patient friends.