sand is overrated. its just tiny little rocks.

for anyone that knows me, or has seen my room in the past, they could easily have classified me as a neat freak. someone that puts things away and cleans up and generally has order among their things. not anymore my friends. i'm working towards a less controlling, more unorganized cori. so far...success. even ria got wide eyed when she visited my door tonight. that means score in my book. my desk is hardly recognizable. laundry (clean, that is) is piled up by my feet. and textbooks line the floor. i'm only missing a dirty plate with moldy food stuck to it, and thats just cause we have an ant problem. why, you may ask, has this change occurred? its not that i dont wanna care anymore. but its kinda that i dont wanna care anymore. what difference will it make on my day if my room is clean and my laundry is put away? honestly guys. and those to-do lists, the ones i thought were helping me to get things accomplished. good bye to that for real. i use to write it all out on the mirror in my room. and every night as i laid down to sleep i would see it in the reflection and the idea of it all would haunt my dreams. no more no more. rather than help me, i'm beginning to realize that they just added to my stress that was already present from the original work. and then i would have things unmarked and they would just sit there, looming over my head. so i gave up. and honestly, things are better. i'm more productive and it just seems so much better when i sit down to do something and i'm like "i'm gonna get as much done as i can in this time and thats it" instead of placing this impossible goal in front of me. it just feels so much better. like breathing easier. and sorry to all of you who just read that. it was really just for my own personal benefit.

in other random daily news...
i made an A on my english 200 in class essay. um yeah. granted it is a freshmen course and i am a junior, but that was the first in class essay i have written since high school, and i wrote it on my birthday, which means the focus wasnt really there. but still, i got a "good ideas, well written" and in melanie terms, that means way to be cori.
i ran into cool friends on the sidewalk today. man, i love when that happens. especially with that stephen kid. i mean, that guy just oozes cool.
i revisited eternal sunshine and the spotless mind. and realized why i love it all over again.
while doing laundry today i came across several dish towels and bath towels that i noticed werent mine. i had already washed them but curiousity struck me and i just had to ask. got nos from ria and tasha, and jokingly i suggested it was melanie and wouldnt it be funny if she had randomly stuck her bra in there too. so just out of sheer humor i ask melanie today if she put those random towels in my clothes basket. thinking she would laugh in my face, i was surprised when she said yeah. turns out she didnt know who they belonged to, so into my basket they went. well thats all fine and dandy, but i think as a little payback i might stick a couple pairs of my underwear in her basket next week. ya know, add a little spice to her laundry day. hahaha. as jared would say...thats great (awkward silence)
speaking of jared...i was suppose to do secret mission with the guys, it being wednesday and all. but he called really late so thats probably best anyways. i'm not saying they wouldnt want me there, but itd be kinda weird. just being a girl and intruding on that "we're boys, lets make up a secret mission club and build a treehouse, no girls allowed" thing. plus i'd only be over there like 10 minutes and then i'd leave and that would seem kinda pointless. i should probably just resign knightriders name and just let her live on as this really cool chick in my mind. yeah.

currently:
reading captivating by john and stasi eldredge, man that thing is opening my eyes to all those little annoying habits of mine;
listening to one of my six new cds - gold=ryan adams, plans=death cab, glow=innocence mission, the ditty bops, from under the cork tree=fall out boy, and strange/beautiful=aqualung. its like a brand new cd collection in the course of a weekend, gotta love that;
feeling like there arent enough what if questions out there in the world. i think i might start a what if section on every update i post for the masses (rique and jared) to sit and ponder over.

by the way...i wanna cut my hair and dye it red again. any thoughts?