i am a princess on the way to my throne.

not absolutely sure if that title fits me.
i'm certainly not graceful enough to be a princess,
but i do feel like theres greatness ahead
and i'll get there eventually.
good lyric, nonetheless.
(should that be one word or three?)

pause for me to put on some mood music. and
my sweater kinda smells like fried chicken. yum.

ever wonder why we like the things we do? (this will be a blog in which i think about the randomness of things and express those thoughts through words that i just cant bring myself to say out loud, who knows why) why some things, and not others, and in my case the most random things, bring joy and warmth to a persons heart? like leaves...honestly, who likes leaves as much as i do? i actually thought about this today. i'm not even actually sure why i like leaves. but the fact is, and kind of my point in some ways, is that i like the way that i like things and that i like the things that i like. and that despite the fact that the people in which i associate myself with will not always like or get excited about the same things, or the fact that despite all my failed attempts at mustering up interest in things others like, i have no desire to change my likes in any way. while i havent always liked all of me, i've always liked being at least somewhat unique in small ways, even if i'm the only one that notices it. and if its a love of fall leaves that sets me a part, well then so it is.

i cried hard the other night. not even totally sure as to why or what initiated it. just weary, i guess. but man it felt good. granted, i do get a little more emotional and more often than most, but a good cry like that one, one that almost takes something out of you, can be so good. like you worked for it, deserved every tear. i'm not depressed, its just taken me a long time to realize that there is a big difference between being joyful and being perky. and that sadness actually does have its advantages. while i dont wallow, overall...i just dont mind it.

so to all of those home for christmas, or at least heading in that direction...i pray that your semesters ended beautifully. and that your upcoming time with your family and friends is precious. may each of you be blessed with a christmas morning that consists of waking to the sunshine and knowing you are loved.

merry christmas to all.